Drinking When You're Not A Drinker


As I type this, I've just woken up from a scatty, cheap Warrington night out with 3 of my best friends and my fabulous boyfriend.

Don't get me wrong, a scatty, cheap, Warrington night out is amazing. When you're paying for £1 drinks at the bar and dancing like a maniac with someone who dances equally as passionately, and crazily, as you do, you literally cannot go wrong.

The thing is though, I am not a drinker. I do not usually drink. And, over the past few weeks, I have drank a lot... and I mean A LOT.

When you start dating someone, it's very hard not to just say 'shall we go for a drink' or 'lets go here and have a cocktail', because basically, it's a social thing. We're conditioned into doing it because it's a way of 'socializing' that we know all too well.

Prior to dating and boyfriend life, at the most I would go out drinking once a week. I drank only green tea, black coffee and water and ate my vegetables like some kind of garden rabbit. I was very very healthy. And, drinking makes you feel gross. Drinking leads you to McDonalds, and shoveling two portions of chips and gravy down your throat to sober you up.

Every once in a while, that's all fine and dandy, but when it's become like a three-time-a-week thing, it starts to take it's toll.

1. I have gained weight, and for me, that is very hard to deal with. I like myself to look and feel a certain way within myself. I like to feel clean and healthy and fresh, and honestly, right now, I feel pretty fucking gross.

2. I just feel dehydrated all the time. I'm forever getting cramp in my feet and having huge ass spots appear on my forehead, which cuts my self-esteem down to about a 0.2 out of 10.

3. I don't feel that happy about it. I guess, sure, in the moment when I'm actually drunk, dancing and singing in the street, I feel so on top of the world, but when I get home or wake up the next morning and I look in the mirror or have heart-burn destroying the middle of my esophagus, I feel very very low. I miss waking up drinking my green tea and cracking on with work - I miss the days before my life became one huge social event.

"Allow yourself a moment"

So, drinking when you don't usually drink is hard.

Like I said, don't get my wrong, in the moment it's absolutely the best time of my life, and I wouldn't change any of it because I've had some of the best moments I've had in my entire life during these past couple of drunken weeks, but I'm totally ready for a break. I'm ready to get back to the gym, get writing and filming again and sipping green juices and eating lettuce. I'm ready for a drinking detox, for sure.

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  1. Holly you are so bloody beautiful! Totally feel you on the drinking thing though - if I have a period of time when I'm out a lot, even if I'm enjoying it, I cant wait for it all to quieten down so I can get a break from that horrible unhealthy feeling it sometimes brings on.
    Sophie x


    1. Thanks so much Sophie! Everyone needs a break every now and again! xxx

  2. These photos! You're such a gorgeous thang!
    This reminds me of my days at uni, I've never really been a huge drinker (although love the odd big night out!!). Obvs at uni it was all about the booze so I found myself drinking a lot more. These days I do love a few drinks, but I'd much rather spend the night scoffing chocolate than drinking 🙃 Xx

    1. Thanks so much Robyn! I love a cosy night in with food too!! xxx


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