To some people, you're going to be second best. I guess that's the way it is.

There have been so many situations in my life where I have put a person first and they have left me to myself in my darkest moments in return.

“People will only take you as seriously as you take yourself” - that's something I've learnt. And, well, I don't take myself very seriously... or should I say, I don't put myself very high up on my priorities list. I am not top of my hierarchy.

I care too much, I think. I worry over what people consider me as, or how they perceive me.

I want to be loved.

Doesn't everyone?

For the people I love, I'd do anything. I put them first every time. But, other people don't always work that way too, and I need to realise that.

I'm not saying that these people in my life don't love me, I'm sure they do in a sense, but they just have the guts to prioritize themselves over me, and sometimes I find that difficult to deal with.

I find it alien for people to not think about another before themselves. But, in this day and age, we're living in a dog-eat-dog world, and that's just how it's going to be.

So yeah, being second best to someone is shit, but if that's how they want to work, leave them to it and learn from it. To that person, you're second best, so keep that in mind next time you decide to prioritize them over your own feelings.

“Sometimes we justify someone's actions not because we think what they did was okay but because we know it was not.”