I've read a lot of posts lately discussing people's feelings towards the blogging world and their own blogs themselves and, I have to say, I'm kind of in the same boat as them.

I'm confused as to where this blog can take me, whether it's the right thing for me to still be doing and what direction this blog is going in.

I'll always love writing, don't get me wrong, but considering how quiet this year has been for me in terms of collaborations, and also just ideas to discuss, I'm feeling a little lost.

I'm not too sure whether I 'fit' anymore. I'm not sure if I'm the person people want to be hearing from. I'm not able to inspire you with amazing Gucci handbags or show you trips where I've been whisked away to a sunny country, all I can supply you with is the simplicity of my writing and some occasional photo-shoots that I do, that's it.

Maybe this is just the world screaming 'Take a break Hol!' or maybe this is a sign that it's time for me to pack it all in... I'm honestly not sure.

This year has been a bumpy one, so perhaps that's where these feelings are coming from, or maybe it's something that's been stewing for a while.

I guess I just don't know what I have to contribute anymore, and anything that I do seem to contribute these days just seems to land flat, or get the wrong kind of reaction than what I'm looking for.

It's all just hard work... and it didn't used to be.

It all used to be so much fun, it used to bring out everything creative in me. Now, a lot of the time, I sit here worrying over what I should or shouldn't write, or whether my style is 'creative' enough to even share.

I feel like I've lost the passion to be myself in the blogging world, and that's tough.

It's an over-flowing industry full of soooo many amazing people. Everyone with a blog has something new to contribute, because everyone is unique, but maybe that means, for me (someone who's been at it for 4 years now), that I've become boring and 'old news'.

I don't mind being 'old news', but I'd want to be 'old news' that still manages to inspire or be fun for whoever is still following or reading... and, well... maybe I'm not?

The feeling of being 'lost' in your career is hard because, honestly, I'm really not too sure where I would go from here. I'm not sure what life is like in the 'outside world' or how I'd manage in a day-to-day, 9-5, job. Everything I've done since the age of 16 has been creative and in my own hands.

It's a daunting place to be put in.

Like I said, maybe this is just a sign that I need to take some time away and reflect, refresh and revamp, but I can't say I feel good about it. I pretty much feel like I'm floating in 'blogging limbo' and haven't found the right path to head down yet.

I guess the point of this post was to just vent - to get out these thoughts and feelings into something I could understand and organise more - but for the sake of it being on my blog, please let me know what you think.

If you have ideas for me, or anything you'd want to me to try, message me, comment, even email me!

Hopefully this isn't as much of the end of this little blogging journey as it feels it is...