I've read a lot of posts lately discussing people's feelings towards the blogging world and their own blogs themselves and, I have to say, I'm kind of in the same boat as them.

I'm confused as to where this blog can take me, whether it's the right thing for me to still be doing and what direction this blog is going in.

I'll always love writing, don't get me wrong, but considering how quiet this year has been for me in terms of collaborations, and also just ideas to discuss, I'm feeling a little lost.


I'm not too sure whether I 'fit' anymore. I'm not sure if I'm the person people want to be hearing from. I'm not able to inspire you with amazing Gucci handbags or show you trips where I've been whisked away to a sunny country, all I can supply you with is the simplicity of my writing and some occasional photo-shoots that I do, that's it.

Maybe this is just the world screaming 'Take a break Hol!' or maybe this is a sign that it's time for me to pack it all in... I'm honestly not sure.

This year has been a bumpy one, so perhaps that's where these feelings are coming from, or maybe it's something that's been stewing for a while.


I guess I just don't know what I have to contribute anymore, and anything that I do seem to contribute these days just seems to land flat, or get the wrong kind of reaction than what I'm looking for.

It's all just hard work... and it didn't used to be.

It all used to be so much fun, it used to bring out everything creative in me. Now, a lot of the time, I sit here worrying over what I should or shouldn't write, or whether my style is 'creative' enough to even share.

I feel like I've lost the passion to be myself in the blogging world, and that's tough.



It's an over-flowing industry full of soooo many amazing people. Everyone with a blog has something new to contribute, because everyone is unique, but maybe that means, for me (someone who's been at it for 4 years now), that I've become boring and 'old news'.

I don't mind being 'old news', but I'd want to be 'old news' that still manages to inspire or be fun for whoever is still following or reading... and, well... maybe I'm not?



The feeling of being 'lost' in your career is hard because, honestly, I'm really not too sure where I would go from here. I'm not sure what life is like in the 'outside world' or how I'd manage in a day-to-day, 9-5, job. Everything I've done since the age of 16 has been creative and in my own hands.

It's a daunting place to be put in.

Like I said, maybe this is just a sign that I need to take some time away and reflect, refresh and revamp, but I can't say I feel good about it. I pretty much feel like I'm floating in 'blogging limbo' and haven't found the right path to head down yet.


I guess the point of this post was to just vent - to get out these thoughts and feelings into something I could understand and organise more - but for the sake of it being on my blog, please let me know what you think.

If you have ideas for me, or anything you'd want to me to try, message me, comment, even email me!

Hopefully this isn't as much of the end of this little blogging journey as it feels it is...

Where Do I Go From Here?


I've read a lot of posts lately discussing people's feelings towards the blogging world and their own blogs themselves and, I have to say, I'm kind of in the same boat as them.

I'm confused as to where this blog can take me, whether it's the right thing for me to still be doing and what direction this blog is going in.

I'll always love writing, don't get me wrong, but considering how quiet this year has been for me in terms of collaborations, and also just ideas to discuss, I'm feeling a little lost.


I'm not too sure whether I 'fit' anymore. I'm not sure if I'm the person people want to be hearing from. I'm not able to inspire you with amazing Gucci handbags or show you trips where I've been whisked away to a sunny country, all I can supply you with is the simplicity of my writing and some occasional photo-shoots that I do, that's it.

Maybe this is just the world screaming 'Take a break Hol!' or maybe this is a sign that it's time for me to pack it all in... I'm honestly not sure.

This year has been a bumpy one, so perhaps that's where these feelings are coming from, or maybe it's something that's been stewing for a while.


I guess I just don't know what I have to contribute anymore, and anything that I do seem to contribute these days just seems to land flat, or get the wrong kind of reaction than what I'm looking for.

It's all just hard work... and it didn't used to be.

It all used to be so much fun, it used to bring out everything creative in me. Now, a lot of the time, I sit here worrying over what I should or shouldn't write, or whether my style is 'creative' enough to even share.

I feel like I've lost the passion to be myself in the blogging world, and that's tough.



It's an over-flowing industry full of soooo many amazing people. Everyone with a blog has something new to contribute, because everyone is unique, but maybe that means, for me (someone who's been at it for 4 years now), that I've become boring and 'old news'.

I don't mind being 'old news', but I'd want to be 'old news' that still manages to inspire or be fun for whoever is still following or reading... and, well... maybe I'm not?



The feeling of being 'lost' in your career is hard because, honestly, I'm really not too sure where I would go from here. I'm not sure what life is like in the 'outside world' or how I'd manage in a day-to-day, 9-5, job. Everything I've done since the age of 16 has been creative and in my own hands.

It's a daunting place to be put in.

Like I said, maybe this is just a sign that I need to take some time away and reflect, refresh and revamp, but I can't say I feel good about it. I pretty much feel like I'm floating in 'blogging limbo' and haven't found the right path to head down yet.


I guess the point of this post was to just vent - to get out these thoughts and feelings into something I could understand and organise more - but for the sake of it being on my blog, please let me know what you think.

If you have ideas for me, or anything you'd want to me to try, message me, comment, even email me!

Hopefully this isn't as much of the end of this little blogging journey as it feels it is...

My life is my life, no one else's.

The things I do have an impact on me, and those closest to me, only.

So, I guess I just find it baffling when people find it appropriate to preach to me what I should and shouldn't do.

"Everything changes when you start to emit your own frequency rather than absorbing the frequencies around you, when you start imprinting your intent on the universe rather than receiving an imprint from existence."





This has been something that seems to have increased in the last year for me.

You see, when I started this blogging/Instagram/YouTube malarkey, I was a very different person. I was younger, less comfortable within myself, and wayyyy too concerned with what people thought of me.

Now, not so much.

I'm 4 years older, learning more and more about how to handle my mental health as the days go by, and I'm not that concerned about whether people love or loath me or not.

If you don't like me, you don't like me. As long as you aren't direct and nasty with me about it, I really don't mind.




"Acceptance of yourself is far more important than acceptance from others"

I think this is basically what people don't like, isn't it? People really don't like it when someone cares less sometimes. People want you to have some squeaky clean, pristine persona all the time, and, well, I'm sorry, but that wouldn't be showing you the 'real' me.

The real me swears, the real me likes to drink with her friends, the real me wants to look and feel hot in her underwear, and that's just it. I just want to be myself, do my own thing, and enjoy it.





If anything you do with your life affects someone purely only because you're not living up to their expectations of you, SO WHAT?!

All that matters is that you are happy with your choices, you're not hurting anyone by doing anything and you're enjoying your life.

Life's too short to worry about if 'Debra from Instagram' thought I was a 'nice girl', and now she's 'disappointed' because I'm posing in my underwear and drinking gin.

Like, f*ck you Debra.

"You've changed." - Yeah, I bloody well have, and I love it!

Why Does What I Do With My Life Concern You So Much?


My life is my life, no one else's.

The things I do have an impact on me, and those closest to me, only.

So, I guess I just find it baffling when people find it appropriate to preach to me what I should and shouldn't do.

"Everything changes when you start to emit your own frequency rather than absorbing the frequencies around you, when you start imprinting your intent on the universe rather than receiving an imprint from existence."





This has been something that seems to have increased in the last year for me.

You see, when I started this blogging/Instagram/YouTube malarkey, I was a very different person. I was younger, less comfortable within myself, and wayyyy too concerned with what people thought of me.

Now, not so much.

I'm 4 years older, learning more and more about how to handle my mental health as the days go by, and I'm not that concerned about whether people love or loath me or not.

If you don't like me, you don't like me. As long as you aren't direct and nasty with me about it, I really don't mind.




"Acceptance of yourself is far more important than acceptance from others"

I think this is basically what people don't like, isn't it? People really don't like it when someone cares less sometimes. People want you to have some squeaky clean, pristine persona all the time, and, well, I'm sorry, but that wouldn't be showing you the 'real' me.

The real me swears, the real me likes to drink with her friends, the real me wants to look and feel hot in her underwear, and that's just it. I just want to be myself, do my own thing, and enjoy it.





If anything you do with your life affects someone purely only because you're not living up to their expectations of you, SO WHAT?!

All that matters is that you are happy with your choices, you're not hurting anyone by doing anything and you're enjoying your life.

Life's too short to worry about if 'Debra from Instagram' thought I was a 'nice girl', and now she's 'disappointed' because I'm posing in my underwear and drinking gin.

Like, f*ck you Debra.

"You've changed." - Yeah, I bloody well have, and I love it!

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