THE SUNNY WEATHER 

The Weather recently has been glorious. There's nothing better to drag you out of a bad mood, or simply out of the house for an hour or so, than a bit of sunshine!

I've been absolutely loving heading into Manchester, prancing about in the sun, drinking g&ts - I'm the most freckly, and may I even say tanned???, I've been in years haha!




FRIENDSHIPS

Over the past few months, my friendships seemed to have blossomed in a way I never thought they would.

Now, I'm a bit of a loner of sorts, I do tend to have a random mixture of friends, but in this past few months, I've made new friends, been closer to friends than ever before,and it's been absolutely lovely.

Keep your friends close guys, they are the ones that really matter.




CLEARER SKIN

For a while, I've been having a lot of 'ups and downs' with my skin.

I've been having huge breakouts, scarring and dry patches. Everything just seemed to be sending my skin into an absolute tizz.

Then, I stripped my skincare back to basics. I no longer use scrubs and masks, as they seemed to just be drying out my face and leaving my skin feeling super sensitive, and I no longer confuse my skin by using too many products.

I simply just use one face wash, apply a bit of spot treatment here and there when needed, and voila! My skin has cleared up massively!

Oh, and drinking as much water as possible helps too!

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Things To Be Happy About #6



THE SUNNY WEATHER 

The Weather recently has been glorious. There's nothing better to drag you out of a bad mood, or simply out of the house for an hour or so, than a bit of sunshine!

I've been absolutely loving heading into Manchester, prancing about in the sun, drinking g&ts - I'm the most freckly, and may I even say tanned???, I've been in years haha!




FRIENDSHIPS

Over the past few months, my friendships seemed to have blossomed in a way I never thought they would.

Now, I'm a bit of a loner of sorts, I do tend to have a random mixture of friends, but in this past few months, I've made new friends, been closer to friends than ever before,and it's been absolutely lovely.

Keep your friends close guys, they are the ones that really matter.




CLEARER SKIN

For a while, I've been having a lot of 'ups and downs' with my skin.

I've been having huge breakouts, scarring and dry patches. Everything just seemed to be sending my skin into an absolute tizz.

Then, I stripped my skincare back to basics. I no longer use scrubs and masks, as they seemed to just be drying out my face and leaving my skin feeling super sensitive, and I no longer confuse my skin by using too many products.

I simply just use one face wash, apply a bit of spot treatment here and there when needed, and voila! My skin has cleared up massively!

Oh, and drinking as much water as possible helps too!

Shop this look here:



*Here's a little post I wrote, a week or so ago, when my mind was a little fuzzy and my soul was a little sore... it's still relevant now but, I guess I'm at a point where I'm trying to move on from this feeling. Anyway, here you go:*


So, I feel a little broken. I think we've established that.

My heart is hurt, my life has changed, and I'm just not dealing with it all that well.... or at all really.

Yeah, I'm really not dealing with it. 



I've tried to keep myself busy, you see. To keep my mind occupied.

I've been working, seeing friends, doing the most mundane things, simply just because I'm too afraid to stop. I'm afraid to stop and feel anything. I'm afraid to realise that I don't feel that okay right now.

"Talking to someone every single day for hours can be pretty destructive, because there will come a day where you don't speak at all, and it's going to be the loneliest feeling in the world."

Every time I'm alone, it hits me. This overwhelming emptiness hits me, and I go kind of numb.

The world becomes heavy, everything becomes exhausting, and it's it's like every nerve in my body stops working.

It's all just not working.

I have to keep my mind distracted in order to function, in order to live. Otherwise, nothing happens. Nothing gets done. Nothing makes me feel anything anymore unless my mind is occupied by something or someone else.



And, since I don't necessarily 'feel' in some moments, everything is no longer a 'feeling' to me, but is actually what I think I am and what I believe that I am, and it's honestly torture.

"This morning I was so happy. I don't know what went wrong."

I believe that I am completely worthless right now. 

I believe that I am unlovable and ugly. 

I believe that none of this will ever end. 

My mind is convinced of many things. And, maybe they're wrong, maybe they're right... but it's starting to get a bit confusing for my little brain to handle.

I'm starting to have to force emotions sometimes. I'm starting to have to lie about my feelings. I'm starting to feel like there's a million different faces - a million different Hollys - that just work in rotation all the time.

I'm exhausted.



I don't know why I've taken to here to talk about all of this... ideally I should probably consult a therapist of sorts, but for me, this blog is my venting place, so here I shall vent.

"That's the thing about pain, it demands to be felt"

Everything is just hard right now.

I feel broken.

I feel like there are tiny pieces of Holly flying everywhere and I can't seem to catch them and put them back together.

I'm all over the place.

I'm just wondering when I'll feel 'fixed' again.

When will I be able to make myself whole again?

"So, I Feel A Little Broken"

*Here's a little post I wrote, a week or so ago, when my mind was a little fuzzy and my soul was a little sore... it's still relevant now but, I guess I'm at a point where I'm trying to move on from this feeling. Anyway, here you go:*


So, I feel a little broken. I think we've established that.

My heart is hurt, my life has changed, and I'm just not dealing with it all that well.... or at all really.

Yeah, I'm really not dealing with it. 



I've tried to keep myself busy, you see. To keep my mind occupied.

I've been working, seeing friends, doing the most mundane things, simply just because I'm too afraid to stop. I'm afraid to stop and feel anything. I'm afraid to realise that I don't feel that okay right now.

"Talking to someone every single day for hours can be pretty destructive, because there will come a day where you don't speak at all, and it's going to be the loneliest feeling in the world."

Every time I'm alone, it hits me. This overwhelming emptiness hits me, and I go kind of numb.

The world becomes heavy, everything becomes exhausting, and it's it's like every nerve in my body stops working.

It's all just not working.

I have to keep my mind distracted in order to function, in order to live. Otherwise, nothing happens. Nothing gets done. Nothing makes me feel anything anymore unless my mind is occupied by something or someone else.



And, since I don't necessarily 'feel' in some moments, everything is no longer a 'feeling' to me, but is actually what I think I am and what I believe that I am, and it's honestly torture.

"This morning I was so happy. I don't know what went wrong."

I believe that I am completely worthless right now. 

I believe that I am unlovable and ugly. 

I believe that none of this will ever end. 

My mind is convinced of many things. And, maybe they're wrong, maybe they're right... but it's starting to get a bit confusing for my little brain to handle.

I'm starting to have to force emotions sometimes. I'm starting to have to lie about my feelings. I'm starting to feel like there's a million different faces - a million different Hollys - that just work in rotation all the time.

I'm exhausted.



I don't know why I've taken to here to talk about all of this... ideally I should probably consult a therapist of sorts, but for me, this blog is my venting place, so here I shall vent.

"That's the thing about pain, it demands to be felt"

Everything is just hard right now.

I feel broken.

I feel like there are tiny pieces of Holly flying everywhere and I can't seem to catch them and put them back together.

I'm all over the place.

I'm just wondering when I'll feel 'fixed' again.

When will I be able to make myself whole again?

So, it's the end of May already. How have we ended up here?

A minute ago I feel like I had just started my new years resolutions (which I haven't stuck to by the way because, well, who does?), was so excited for the year ahead and so ready to see what this year had to offer.

Now, don't get me wrong, I'm still excited for what the rest of the year is going to muster up, but I'm so not able to get over how quickly the past 5 months have passed me by. They've literally disappeared before my eyes.

I'm kind of scared about the fact that I can barely remember what I've got up to these past few months.



It's crazy to me that months of the year can fly by so quickly, that my fun days out can vanish into yesterday's memories or that that amazing job I booked wasn't last week like it feels like it was, it was actually 2 months ago...

Saying that, I'm going to try and take more notice, put in more effort, to seize the day, especially now that it's Summer time.

I'm trying my best to make the most of each day. I'm trying to not let the hours pass by and be wasted.

If the sun is out and everyone's in good spirits, why on earth not, right?

I'm putting myself out there into the world. I'm pushing myself out of comfort zone. I'm trying to live each day to the fullest before it passes me by again.

I think that's the best way to be these days.

Before I know it, it'll be a month after writing this post and I want to be able to remember all the amazing things I did with my time.



My gorgeous Henry London watch is going to my lovely little companion with this.

I never normally accessorize with watches, but since receiving this amazing Westminster gold one, I haven't been able to take it off.

There's something so classic and simple about wearing watch, keeping an eye on the time - it really reminds me to slow down, make the most of those little ticking seconds.



Plus, it totally helps that the watch is so so beautifully designed.

I love that despite it's small size, it's still able to make such a statement with my outfits.

"Timeless"

Here I've styled the watch along with a very 'classic' Hol look. Red head-to-toe, rays of sunshine, and red lipstick - yet despite all the red, the watch is still doing all the talking for me! It's such a timeless little piece, I love it.



To get your hands on this gorgeous watch yourself, simply click HERE and you'll be taken straight there!

Trying Not To Let Time Pass Me By ft. Henry London Watches #ad


So, it's the end of May already. How have we ended up here?

A minute ago I feel like I had just started my new years resolutions (which I haven't stuck to by the way because, well, who does?), was so excited for the year ahead and so ready to see what this year had to offer.

Now, don't get me wrong, I'm still excited for what the rest of the year is going to muster up, but I'm so not able to get over how quickly the past 5 months have passed me by. They've literally disappeared before my eyes.

I'm kind of scared about the fact that I can barely remember what I've got up to these past few months.



It's crazy to me that months of the year can fly by so quickly, that my fun days out can vanish into yesterday's memories or that that amazing job I booked wasn't last week like it feels like it was, it was actually 2 months ago...

Saying that, I'm going to try and take more notice, put in more effort, to seize the day, especially now that it's Summer time.

I'm trying my best to make the most of each day. I'm trying to not let the hours pass by and be wasted.

If the sun is out and everyone's in good spirits, why on earth not, right?

I'm putting myself out there into the world. I'm pushing myself out of comfort zone. I'm trying to live each day to the fullest before it passes me by again.

I think that's the best way to be these days.

Before I know it, it'll be a month after writing this post and I want to be able to remember all the amazing things I did with my time.



My gorgeous Henry London watch is going to my lovely little companion with this.

I never normally accessorize with watches, but since receiving this amazing Westminster gold one, I haven't been able to take it off.

There's something so classic and simple about wearing watch, keeping an eye on the time - it really reminds me to slow down, make the most of those little ticking seconds.



Plus, it totally helps that the watch is so so beautifully designed.

I love that despite it's small size, it's still able to make such a statement with my outfits.

"Timeless"

Here I've styled the watch along with a very 'classic' Hol look. Red head-to-toe, rays of sunshine, and red lipstick - yet despite all the red, the watch is still doing all the talking for me! It's such a timeless little piece, I love it.



To get your hands on this gorgeous watch yourself, simply click HERE and you'll be taken straight there!

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