1. Glamour Magazine

In July 2017, I was featured in Glamour Magazine, which was super exciting! I remember heading into my local newsagents, with that giddy 'oh my god, I'm in a magazine!' feeling, to check out if it had been put out in the shops yet. Then, after flicking through, and spotting my little pale face against a bright red background, I ended up at the counter with 10 copies of it.

2. Shooting For Primark Beauty

Last year, I also got to shoot for Primark Beauty. This shoot is still one of my favourites - I really love shooting beauty campaigns - the make up was super cool and bold (totally, not my everyday make up, which is always fun to do on shoots), and the team were just absolutely lovely. You guys loved the photos too, which made it even more exciting for me!

3. Working With Estee Lauder & Nike

I began working with Estee Lauder last year, on a campaign for their new Lipsticks (obviously, I'm a great advocate for that kind of thing *wink wink*). The photos I shot for this are still some of my favourites, and I love how my relationship with the brand grew from there!

I also did a super cool collaboration with Nike. I shot some fab photos with Rosie Butcher, all focusing on a sassy pair of Nike Air Force 1s, which was so much fun!



4. The H&M Ad Comes Out

In November, the moment I had been waiting all summer long for, finally came. Back in June, I shot an advert for H&M in Prague, and it came out just in time to celebrate Christmas (one of my fave times of year!). That 3 second cameo of me waving will forever be one of my favourite career highlights haha.

5. A Holiday To Amsterdam

In February, I headed to Amsterdam for the second time.

Amsterdam is one of my favourite places I've traveled to, and although that trip wasn't one of the best holidays I've been on, it's still nice that I treated myself to a little get away!

6. Me & Ashleigh Get On Vogue Italia

Ashleigh Hamman and I did a really fun shoot with Joshua Drakes back in February, and to our excitement, it got onto Photo Vogue Italia!

Okay... 1. It's super exciting to be on Vogue, and 2. It's even more exciting when it's with one of your friends!

7. A Break Up

In March, my first relationship came to an end. It's probably one of the hardest things I've had to deal with in a long time, but it's definitely been a big learning curve for me, which I'm surprisingly grateful for.



8. Basically Living with Sam Sheldon Every Weekend

One of my favourite things to happen this year, was the friendship I made with my lovely gal Sam. I basically lodged at hers for about 3 weekends straight, and well... the love just grew from there haha.

Sitting in her room, chatting about how shit but amazing Riverdale is, and having her brush dryshampoo out of my hair whilst I sat on a stool in my underwear, is basically what I live for.

9. Finally Shooting with Silvijah Gec

Back in 2016, I bumped into a photographer called Sivijah at London Fashion Week. She took some lovely photos of me that day, and since, we'd been trying to organise a shoot together when I was down in London. But, we never crossed paths... UNTIL NOW.

We spent an amazingly sunny day shooting in Nottinghill, and the photos turned out amazing! She's one talented lady!

10. Ever Growing Self Confidence

In the past year, my confidence has truly had it's ups and downs, but I'd say I've become the most accepting of myself that I've ever been in 2018.

I've learnt that life isn't all about being a size 6, or having a gap between your thighs, but it's about having wonderfully hilarious days with your friends, and getting yourself a nice peachy bum from eating too much pizza.

Here's to more happiness and more self confidence (oh, and more pizza) in my 20th year too!

11. A Gucci Styled Shoot

This year, I got to be involved in a shoot that made all my Gucci dreams come true.

Gucci is a brand that I would dieeeee to model for (I mean, who knows? maybe one day?), but I got the second best thing when Kelly Johns asked me to be a part of her Final Major Project.

The shoot was so perfectly 'gucci-esque' and the team were all lovely to work with too!

Have a look at Kelly's work HERE.


12. Meeting & Working with Marta Ferenc

So, you know when you meet a photographer that just 'gets' you? That's what Marta is.

Marta is such a talented lady, who shares and equal amount of love for the colour red and polka dots as I do, and I just absolutely love working with her!

Since shooting together that first time, we have had so many chats (mostly me drunk messaging her about my tragic life) and shared so many ideas. I can't wait to work more with this gal!

13. Reigniting Friendships

Last year, I really cut myself off from my friends. I put myself in a little bubble and wouldn't let anyone in. However, this year, I've managed to reignite some amazing friendships with people.

It's so nice to have people that I love back in my life again.

14. Falling Obsessively In Love With The Colour Red

I just really love the colour red. There's not really much else to say about this...

15. A London Trip With Darina

In May, Darina (one of my favourite photographers, and people, in the whole entire world) and I headed off to London for a couple of days.

We spent our time drinking gin, shooting candid photos, and enjoying our little balcony we got with our hotel room.

It was such a lovely time, with an absolutely lovely lady!



16. Rhian, CJ, Lenny & Starr

I just want to shout from the roof tops how amazing these 4 girls are.

Since meeting Rhian this year, she has become one of my best friends. Our friendship is probably the shortest friendship going, but the laughs I've had with this gal and the love I have for her, just doesn't even compare to that.

CJ moving to Manchester is one of the best things that could have happened. She's one of the coolest, kindest and most generous ladies I have ever met, and I absolutely love her to pieces. Literally just being around her makes me feel x10 more confident in myself.

With Lenny, I basically just want to be her. I want to be as strong, confident and amazing as this girl is. She's also absolutely hilarious too, which is a huge added bonus. Oh, and she's really fit... if you hadn't noticed.

And Starr, she's is just an absolute HUN, who is well and truly killing it. Every time I see this girl, she makes me laugh and smile, and she's always ready to give me advice when I need it.

Every single one of these girls has been there for me when I've felt shit this year, and I cannot thank them enough for it.

17. Shooting For L'Oreal's Just Can't Get Enough Campaign & ASOS

One of the biggest jobs I've booked so far this year is for L'Oreal. I got to be a part of their latest lipstick campaign, which is super exciting for a lipstick lover like me.

I got to head down to London, sing 'Just Can't Get Enough' all afternoon and work with a bunch of amazingly lovely models - what else could I ask for?!

I also got to shoot a little bit of ecom for ASOS. I got to shoot their accessories and bags, which was really cool!


18. Working With Bobbi Brown, Nasty Gal and & Other Stories

This year, I've had the chance to work with some brands on pretty much a monthly basis, which I've really really loved.

I've taken part in 2 campaigns with Bobbi Brown (a team of people who are just truly lovely), as well as being a part of the #NastyGalsDoItBetter team on Instagram and working with & Other Stories too!

How did I get so lucky?!

19. Shooting For Miss Selfridge

This month, I got to shoot for one of my favourite brands, Miss Selfridge. If you head on over to their site, you can see little ol' me... eeeek!

Booking this job made me so happy, so seeing my face on there, and also getting to work with the lovely team there that day, was totally amazing!

I can't wait to see what the rest of this year brings and what happens whilst I'm 20 (when did I stop being 16?! H E L P)

19 Things That Happened In My 19th Year


1. Glamour Magazine

In July 2017, I was featured in Glamour Magazine, which was super exciting! I remember heading into my local newsagents, with that giddy 'oh my god, I'm in a magazine!' feeling, to check out if it had been put out in the shops yet. Then, after flicking through, and spotting my little pale face against a bright red background, I ended up at the counter with 10 copies of it.

2. Shooting For Primark Beauty

Last year, I also got to shoot for Primark Beauty. This shoot is still one of my favourites - I really love shooting beauty campaigns - the make up was super cool and bold (totally, not my everyday make up, which is always fun to do on shoots), and the team were just absolutely lovely. You guys loved the photos too, which made it even more exciting for me!

3. Working With Estee Lauder & Nike

I began working with Estee Lauder last year, on a campaign for their new Lipsticks (obviously, I'm a great advocate for that kind of thing *wink wink*). The photos I shot for this are still some of my favourites, and I love how my relationship with the brand grew from there!

I also did a super cool collaboration with Nike. I shot some fab photos with Rosie Butcher, all focusing on a sassy pair of Nike Air Force 1s, which was so much fun!



4. The H&M Ad Comes Out

In November, the moment I had been waiting all summer long for, finally came. Back in June, I shot an advert for H&M in Prague, and it came out just in time to celebrate Christmas (one of my fave times of year!). That 3 second cameo of me waving will forever be one of my favourite career highlights haha.

5. A Holiday To Amsterdam

In February, I headed to Amsterdam for the second time.

Amsterdam is one of my favourite places I've traveled to, and although that trip wasn't one of the best holidays I've been on, it's still nice that I treated myself to a little get away!

6. Me & Ashleigh Get On Vogue Italia

Ashleigh Hamman and I did a really fun shoot with Joshua Drakes back in February, and to our excitement, it got onto Photo Vogue Italia!

Okay... 1. It's super exciting to be on Vogue, and 2. It's even more exciting when it's with one of your friends!

7. A Break Up

In March, my first relationship came to an end. It's probably one of the hardest things I've had to deal with in a long time, but it's definitely been a big learning curve for me, which I'm surprisingly grateful for.



8. Basically Living with Sam Sheldon Every Weekend

One of my favourite things to happen this year, was the friendship I made with my lovely gal Sam. I basically lodged at hers for about 3 weekends straight, and well... the love just grew from there haha.

Sitting in her room, chatting about how shit but amazing Riverdale is, and having her brush dryshampoo out of my hair whilst I sat on a stool in my underwear, is basically what I live for.

9. Finally Shooting with Silvijah Gec

Back in 2016, I bumped into a photographer called Sivijah at London Fashion Week. She took some lovely photos of me that day, and since, we'd been trying to organise a shoot together when I was down in London. But, we never crossed paths... UNTIL NOW.

We spent an amazingly sunny day shooting in Nottinghill, and the photos turned out amazing! She's one talented lady!

10. Ever Growing Self Confidence

In the past year, my confidence has truly had it's ups and downs, but I'd say I've become the most accepting of myself that I've ever been in 2018.

I've learnt that life isn't all about being a size 6, or having a gap between your thighs, but it's about having wonderfully hilarious days with your friends, and getting yourself a nice peachy bum from eating too much pizza.

Here's to more happiness and more self confidence (oh, and more pizza) in my 20th year too!

11. A Gucci Styled Shoot

This year, I got to be involved in a shoot that made all my Gucci dreams come true.

Gucci is a brand that I would dieeeee to model for (I mean, who knows? maybe one day?), but I got the second best thing when Kelly Johns asked me to be a part of her Final Major Project.

The shoot was so perfectly 'gucci-esque' and the team were all lovely to work with too!

Have a look at Kelly's work HERE.


12. Meeting & Working with Marta Ferenc

So, you know when you meet a photographer that just 'gets' you? That's what Marta is.

Marta is such a talented lady, who shares and equal amount of love for the colour red and polka dots as I do, and I just absolutely love working with her!

Since shooting together that first time, we have had so many chats (mostly me drunk messaging her about my tragic life) and shared so many ideas. I can't wait to work more with this gal!

13. Reigniting Friendships

Last year, I really cut myself off from my friends. I put myself in a little bubble and wouldn't let anyone in. However, this year, I've managed to reignite some amazing friendships with people.

It's so nice to have people that I love back in my life again.

14. Falling Obsessively In Love With The Colour Red

I just really love the colour red. There's not really much else to say about this...

15. A London Trip With Darina

In May, Darina (one of my favourite photographers, and people, in the whole entire world) and I headed off to London for a couple of days.

We spent our time drinking gin, shooting candid photos, and enjoying our little balcony we got with our hotel room.

It was such a lovely time, with an absolutely lovely lady!



16. Rhian, CJ, Lenny & Starr

I just want to shout from the roof tops how amazing these 4 girls are.

Since meeting Rhian this year, she has become one of my best friends. Our friendship is probably the shortest friendship going, but the laughs I've had with this gal and the love I have for her, just doesn't even compare to that.

CJ moving to Manchester is one of the best things that could have happened. She's one of the coolest, kindest and most generous ladies I have ever met, and I absolutely love her to pieces. Literally just being around her makes me feel x10 more confident in myself.

With Lenny, I basically just want to be her. I want to be as strong, confident and amazing as this girl is. She's also absolutely hilarious too, which is a huge added bonus. Oh, and she's really fit... if you hadn't noticed.

And Starr, she's is just an absolute HUN, who is well and truly killing it. Every time I see this girl, she makes me laugh and smile, and she's always ready to give me advice when I need it.

Every single one of these girls has been there for me when I've felt shit this year, and I cannot thank them enough for it.

17. Shooting For L'Oreal's Just Can't Get Enough Campaign & ASOS

One of the biggest jobs I've booked so far this year is for L'Oreal. I got to be a part of their latest lipstick campaign, which is super exciting for a lipstick lover like me.

I got to head down to London, sing 'Just Can't Get Enough' all afternoon and work with a bunch of amazingly lovely models - what else could I ask for?!

I also got to shoot a little bit of ecom for ASOS. I got to shoot their accessories and bags, which was really cool!


18. Working With Bobbi Brown, Nasty Gal and & Other Stories

This year, I've had the chance to work with some brands on pretty much a monthly basis, which I've really really loved.

I've taken part in 2 campaigns with Bobbi Brown (a team of people who are just truly lovely), as well as being a part of the #NastyGalsDoItBetter team on Instagram and working with & Other Stories too!

How did I get so lucky?!

19. Shooting For Miss Selfridge

This month, I got to shoot for one of my favourite brands, Miss Selfridge. If you head on over to their site, you can see little ol' me... eeeek!

Booking this job made me so happy, so seeing my face on there, and also getting to work with the lovely team there that day, was totally amazing!

I can't wait to see what the rest of this year brings and what happens whilst I'm 20 (when did I stop being 16?! H E L P)

To some people, you're going to be second best. I guess that's the way it is.


There have been so many situations in my life where I have put a person first and they have left me to myself in my darkest moments in return.


“People will only take you as seriously as you take yourself” - that's something I've learnt. And, well, I don't take myself very seriously... or should I say, I don't put myself very high up on my priorities list. I am not top of my hierarchy.




I care too much, I think. I worry over what people consider me as, or how they perceive me.


I want to be loved.

Doesn't everyone?


For the people I love, I'd do anything. I put them first every time. But, other people don't always work that way too, and I need to realise that.




I'm not saying that these people in my life don't love me, I'm sure they do in a sense, but they just have the guts to prioritize themselves over me, and sometimes I find that difficult to deal with.


I find it alien for people to not think about another before themselves. But, in this day and age, we're living in a dog-eat-dog world, and that's just how it's going to be.



So yeah, being second best to someone is shit, but if that's how they want to work, leave them to it and learn from it. To that person, you're second best, so keep that in mind next time you decide to prioritize them over your own feelings.

“Sometimes we justify someone's actions not because we think what they did was okay but because we know it was not.”

Second Best


To some people, you're going to be second best. I guess that's the way it is.


There have been so many situations in my life where I have put a person first and they have left me to myself in my darkest moments in return.


“People will only take you as seriously as you take yourself” - that's something I've learnt. And, well, I don't take myself very seriously... or should I say, I don't put myself very high up on my priorities list. I am not top of my hierarchy.




I care too much, I think. I worry over what people consider me as, or how they perceive me.


I want to be loved.

Doesn't everyone?


For the people I love, I'd do anything. I put them first every time. But, other people don't always work that way too, and I need to realise that.




I'm not saying that these people in my life don't love me, I'm sure they do in a sense, but they just have the guts to prioritize themselves over me, and sometimes I find that difficult to deal with.


I find it alien for people to not think about another before themselves. But, in this day and age, we're living in a dog-eat-dog world, and that's just how it's going to be.



So yeah, being second best to someone is shit, but if that's how they want to work, leave them to it and learn from it. To that person, you're second best, so keep that in mind next time you decide to prioritize them over your own feelings.

“Sometimes we justify someone's actions not because we think what they did was okay but because we know it was not.”

In the past few months, I have made some of the best friends I could have ever asked for.

I've met new girls, reignited friendships, and found people who care about me, and understand me, more than I ever thought people could.

I've had people sit and listen to me talk for hours (even days sometimes), support me in really dark times, and simply just encourage me to get back on my feet.

I've had the support system that every broken hearted, depressive, mixed up girl dreams of.




If you know me, you will know that I am a massive softy, especially when it comes to my relationships with people. I'm a huge pushover - I just want to make people happy, do what they want to do, and not cause any tension.

I'm also the kind of girl that gets really down on themselves. I nit-pick at every little problem with myself, tear myself down, and make myself feel completely shit.

So, as you can imagine, I'm not a good advocate for being a 'strong, confident woman' really, am I?





However, in the past few months, I've slowly started to find the confidence to be a little more 'in control' as per say...

Surrounding myself with confident, strong and amazing girls, has made me realise that's exactly how I want to be and feel too. And, well, not too long ago, I did used to be a little like that, I think I've just been chipped away at over time, but it's slowly coming back.

I am slowly, but surely, starting to not give a fuck again.




It's the little things like your friend saying 'Hol, you're better than this' or 'For gods sake Hol, GET OVER IT', that make me think 'oh, shit, yeah I actually am better than this, I need to move the fuck on'. 

Or it's even just minor little compliments here and there, from girls who I completely admire and love, that have boosted my confidence by miles.

Literally, thank GOD for my friends.




Having amazing women back in my life, after being so overly focused on one person for wayyyy too long, has been the best thing to happen to me for a while, and it's been exactly what I needed too.

I needed this reminder that I am not to be pushed over, to be used, to be taken advantage of - sure, I still want to be kind and caring (and a little bit soft, because let's face it... I'm like a walking marshmallow sometimes), but not to the degree where I let people walk all over me... NEVER. AGAIN.

"Let that shit go"

So, this is to my strong as hell, amazing friends. Thank fuck for you. ♥

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Surround Yourself With Amazing Women


In the past few months, I have made some of the best friends I could have ever asked for.

I've met new girls, reignited friendships, and found people who care about me, and understand me, more than I ever thought people could.

I've had people sit and listen to me talk for hours (even days sometimes), support me in really dark times, and simply just encourage me to get back on my feet.

I've had the support system that every broken hearted, depressive, mixed up girl dreams of.




If you know me, you will know that I am a massive softy, especially when it comes to my relationships with people. I'm a huge pushover - I just want to make people happy, do what they want to do, and not cause any tension.

I'm also the kind of girl that gets really down on themselves. I nit-pick at every little problem with myself, tear myself down, and make myself feel completely shit.

So, as you can imagine, I'm not a good advocate for being a 'strong, confident woman' really, am I?





However, in the past few months, I've slowly started to find the confidence to be a little more 'in control' as per say...

Surrounding myself with confident, strong and amazing girls, has made me realise that's exactly how I want to be and feel too. And, well, not too long ago, I did used to be a little like that, I think I've just been chipped away at over time, but it's slowly coming back.

I am slowly, but surely, starting to not give a fuck again.




It's the little things like your friend saying 'Hol, you're better than this' or 'For gods sake Hol, GET OVER IT', that make me think 'oh, shit, yeah I actually am better than this, I need to move the fuck on'. 

Or it's even just minor little compliments here and there, from girls who I completely admire and love, that have boosted my confidence by miles.

Literally, thank GOD for my friends.




Having amazing women back in my life, after being so overly focused on one person for wayyyy too long, has been the best thing to happen to me for a while, and it's been exactly what I needed too.

I needed this reminder that I am not to be pushed over, to be used, to be taken advantage of - sure, I still want to be kind and caring (and a little bit soft, because let's face it... I'm like a walking marshmallow sometimes), but not to the degree where I let people walk all over me... NEVER. AGAIN.

"Let that shit go"

So, this is to my strong as hell, amazing friends. Thank fuck for you. ♥

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Space.


We all need our own space.


“Take care of your thoughts when you are alone, and take care of your words when you are with people.”


Now, I'm the kind of girl that loves surrounding herself with people. I just love it (as of late anyway). I love spending time with friends, heading into town and seeing the world pass by. Even when I'm alone, sitting in coffee shops, people watching, as I work, is one of my favorite pass times.




In the past, I was definitely more of an introvert. I spent a lot of time alone. I gave myself a lot of space.


At that time, going out was not my thing. I lived a very 'ordered’ and 'structured’ life.


I woke up to the same alarm, ate at the same times and did very similar things from day to day.


It was my obsessive behavior that isolated me. But, the behavior was what I loved at that time, so it's understandable.



TOP - H&M // BELT - ASOS

Nowadays things are very different.


I love the randomness of my life. I love that each day brings something new and I love my freedom.


With that, I also love that fact that I see people more. I adore my friends, and having them as a constant in my life is SO important to me. The same goes for my family, as much as they think I constantly want to escape them, knowing that they are always there for me, even when I'm being 'hormonal hol’, makes me feel so loved and complete. (Excuse me whilst I vomit over my own gushing haha)




The only thing with that though is that, I no longer give myself time alone. I no longer have those days to myself where I just do 'me’ and get on with work.


I just got out of my first relationship, and honestly that's something that has broken me a lot more than I thought it ever would, so fair enough that I need to surround myself with people who will lift me up again. But, I think I also need to learn to lift myself up alone too. I need to take care of myself - give myself the space to think and reflect.


My brain is intense - I feel intensely - so time alone, for me to deal with all these feelings right now, is pretty crucial.




So, I'm starting to give myself space again.


I'm taking a tiny leaf out of my old book and spending some time isolated with my thoughts and my work again.


I'm learning to look after myself, working out, taking mental health days. I'm making to-do lists, having long showers, listening to Lily Allen and eating my favorite foods. I'm writing, I'm filming, I'm photographing. I'm doing things I love.


I want to love my life - I want to love what I do - and sometimes I think that means taking time and space to yourself to figure out just how to do that.

Space


Space.


We all need our own space.


“Take care of your thoughts when you are alone, and take care of your words when you are with people.”


Now, I'm the kind of girl that loves surrounding herself with people. I just love it (as of late anyway). I love spending time with friends, heading into town and seeing the world pass by. Even when I'm alone, sitting in coffee shops, people watching, as I work, is one of my favorite pass times.




In the past, I was definitely more of an introvert. I spent a lot of time alone. I gave myself a lot of space.


At that time, going out was not my thing. I lived a very 'ordered’ and 'structured’ life.


I woke up to the same alarm, ate at the same times and did very similar things from day to day.


It was my obsessive behavior that isolated me. But, the behavior was what I loved at that time, so it's understandable.



TOP - H&M // BELT - ASOS

Nowadays things are very different.


I love the randomness of my life. I love that each day brings something new and I love my freedom.


With that, I also love that fact that I see people more. I adore my friends, and having them as a constant in my life is SO important to me. The same goes for my family, as much as they think I constantly want to escape them, knowing that they are always there for me, even when I'm being 'hormonal hol’, makes me feel so loved and complete. (Excuse me whilst I vomit over my own gushing haha)




The only thing with that though is that, I no longer give myself time alone. I no longer have those days to myself where I just do 'me’ and get on with work.


I just got out of my first relationship, and honestly that's something that has broken me a lot more than I thought it ever would, so fair enough that I need to surround myself with people who will lift me up again. But, I think I also need to learn to lift myself up alone too. I need to take care of myself - give myself the space to think and reflect.


My brain is intense - I feel intensely - so time alone, for me to deal with all these feelings right now, is pretty crucial.




So, I'm starting to give myself space again.


I'm taking a tiny leaf out of my old book and spending some time isolated with my thoughts and my work again.


I'm learning to look after myself, working out, taking mental health days. I'm making to-do lists, having long showers, listening to Lily Allen and eating my favorite foods. I'm writing, I'm filming, I'm photographing. I'm doing things I love.


I want to love my life - I want to love what I do - and sometimes I think that means taking time and space to yourself to figure out just how to do that.

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