I've recently been trying to give myself a little bit of a break. I've been feeling pretty tired... well, actually, exhausted, and so I've decided to make sure that I'm letting my body, and especially my mind, rest and recuperate.

You see, I am soooo incredibly motivated this year. I've got so many ideas and plans and I just can't wait to put them all into action. These first two months have been amazing, but incredibly hectic. I've worked non-stop creating content and heading back and to to London, but as we've hit March, I think it's finally taken it's toll and I've hit a bit of a plateau.

I feel worn out and just constantly tired. I feel like when people talk to me, I can't process it and even when I'm looking at an image or trying to read, everything just feels fuzzy. Luckily for little ol' me, I've been such a workaholic for the past two months that I can afford to take a little step back for a bit. I've got so much already written and filmed and organised, that (thank god) it's allowed me to take a break over the past week or so.

It began with a bit of an emotional spiral, where I just kept crying and wondering "WHY AM I SO EXHAUSTED?!". Then came the part where I kept working and working, despite the crying and the mental breakdowns, which just lead to more crying and more mental breakdowns. And now, I'm finally at the part where I've excepted that it's okay to have some time off (even though, I'm still finding myself doing bits of bobs, but at least they're from the comfort of my bed in my pyjamas haha). 

I guess, sometimes it can just be tough to take a step back, especially when you're so passionate about what you're doing. It can be hard to try and switch off and not think - I know that I spend 99.9% of my time thinking about SOMETHING so, that's a tricky one for me. I think you've just got to give yourself enough time to actually process the fact that you need a break from life. It took me about a week to convince myself that I just needed a few days of Netflix and laziness, and that it's totally okay to do that from time to time.

My mind was so focused on work and wanting to keep going that it wasn't letting any of my thoughts about having a break or resting come to the forefront of my mind.


One thing that I always find that brings me to a kind of 'peaceful' mind set is simply, silence. I love the beauty of hearing no noise. It allows me to process my thoughts slowly and remind myself to do things one thing at a time, rather than having a million and one thoughts whizzing around my head all of the time.

I love just being home alone and being able to breathe. Sometimes I feel suffocated if I can hear other people or I can't just roam freely around the house in my PJs and not bump into someone. That probably makes me sound like a grumpy anti-social weirdo, but I just need everything around me to feel empty, to make my mind coherently feel empty too.

I just think there's so much beauty in silence. It makes me feel calm and like I can breathe. It allows me to just feel what I'm actually feeling and not have that 'cloudy mind' feeling that I often have. It's exactly the one thing that I really needed after such a busy time over January and February - I just needed a bit of silence.

I often forget that, after a while, being busy is bound to take it's toll on my mental health. I forget that I still find it difficult to get on with life, and 'busy-ness', as easily as everyone else does. A lot of things still bring me Anxiety and I deal with everything else like my OCD on a day-to-day basis too. So, as well as always being super busy with work, I'm also constantly trying to keep myself sane - it's like I'm doing double the work that I think I'm doing. (No bloody wonder I'm so tired). 

I think if you reach a point where you're crying because you're exhausted and you feel like you just can't process anything (which is the point that I got to), then I think it's time to take a step back. I think it's important to remember that work really can take it's toll on your mental state and that we need to look after ourselves. It's nice to just sit in silence and let yourself think calmly and slowly, rather than feeling manically stressed 24/7.


"If the ocean can calm itself, so can you. We are both salt water mixed with air"

So if, like me, you've hit that March 'plateau' after the 'New Year' high, then maybe it's time to take a little break. Remember that there's no point completely wearing yourself out from work. Remember that without motivation, energy and passion, the work you do or content that you create, isn't going to be as good as it could be with a focused and calm mind to create it in the first place.

It's okay to have a break. It's okay to sleep in or stay in bed all day. It's okay to watch Netflix for 8 hours straight or not even have a shower. It's okay to leave your emails for today and deal with them another time. It's okay to react to how you're feeling and not let yourself suffer and stress out from exhaustion. Everyone needs some time to just be in silence and be calm.

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